merry christmas~HOHOHO December 27, 2008

on 24th dec..the count down..

       i went out with my school mate..yan yee,sam.jane,peec chien,pek yen and camilla.. at beach cafe kajang~
the price is incredible expensive leh~haihz~~i ordered a honey lemon drink and some salad for my dinner and i tot of promising myself for diet~since i think im gaining too much of weight i guess~ i have another layer of spare tyres~wiiie wieee~~its difficult to get new clothes with these spare unwanted tyres~ see la if can shake off these unwanted tyres..hehe
     
           on christmas eve,i din went out with wai cause he hav his frens and i’ve got my frens ~hahha..i suppose to fetch jane at 7.30pm and guess wad i OVER SLEPT!!~~my bro wake me up at 7.20pm when i asked him to wake me uo earlier

             i din take bath cause i just came back from kl for my dental appointment..i got my 5 freaking teeth fill with white simen..cause doc say got holes wor..and 1 tooth almost died,and 2 tooth decaying(2 front teeth)~wuakkaka..i got 3 injections for the numbness~walau~damn pain lor..having 3 injection into my gum~
      

                       i fetch jane and sam and we went to metro kajang for presents??its for sam and jane since they haven buy their presents for gift exchange later?…jane brought a bracelet and sam brought an elianto nails polish and we head to the beach cafe where we suppose to meet up with others..i parked my car and started to wrap our present when our frens start to call us when we already reach..we told them we already reach and wrapping the freaking present in the car..damn dark cause no light…old car mah..
   

              after all the wrappings and ribbons and all the taping we went down and join them..i order a glass of honey lemon juice and a bowl of mixed salad~and its cost …..haihz..i dont wanna say it out~..we brought sprays and start spraying each other before even reach the peak of counting down xmas..we just start spraying and cant stop spraying and ourr neighbour(nex table) start to play too …jankitan from us hahah..they are just secondary kids and we are college student!imagine how playful we get when we gather together~during playing the snow  sprays we hav no sense of maturity and start screaming and playing like a primary school kids..too bad sam went back to her church for her christmas carolling~and during exchange present i got sam’s present and sam got mine!!ahahaha…we noe each other gift even before the party started and i was with her when she buy her present..we end up laughing~hahahaa

and it end at 12 something and i head home and took bath and online for awhile~
this is wad i get for christmas~~from my frens~

                                                                            

purple nail polish
*from sam..

*as requested by sam~~

*its actually 2 pairs of earrings and a yellow bracelet
*from daryl(post laju from malacca~)

last but not least…

*baby winter white hamster with all the equipment(cage..wooden thingie..food)
from WAI!!!thx  wai!!!!!!!
*this cutie is call BABY!! actually its xiao baby but i prefer baby!its alone but we tried to add another baby inside~but its start fighting and i hav to gib back the other baby to the auntie~wuwu!!den we went to other shop but i cakap x mau ady and i menyesal cause he say he will pay for it~)menyesal betul..T.T!!
*other shot of baby doing  her daily activities~

*found munching her kuaci

*found sleeping with terrible pose

*baby’s home(small but comfortable)

*enough for baby alone~

 

 

and my dad brought back a baby shih tzu..from his fren..and keno kena warn by my mum~so his like guarding the baby shih tzu..
*once coco tried intai the baby shih tzu and put her head into the box and keno start to make noises like grrrrr and coco step behind~haha and keno even lying beside the box~

damn cute!!!!

same birthday with my mum and my mum melted when see the puppy~an u can guess why

*keno guarding the puppy

 

and my precious bao bei doing~

SLEEPING~

*aiya i tired ady la~continue nex time la

Origin of white coffee..=.=!! November 9, 2008

can anyone tell me where is the origin of WHITE COFFEE pls???
*yes yes~i noe i noe~
*the answer might shock u all~
*i was having my lunch with jie in OLD TOWN yesterday and something caught my eyes~
*nak tau apa tu??
*tadaaaaa..

*sorry for the blurred pict~my hand was shaking due to my period cramp~
funny huh??
*got toilet sign above the sentence and make me think serong~
*white coffee dari TOILET??
*wuakakakakaa
*i was laughing my head off yday in the shop~
*and i stand infront of the toilet door and snap that pict…
*come to think of it…
*what if a man just finish doing his bussiness inside and open the door and saw what im doing~
*wuakakakakakakakakakaak…
*the conclusion is~im posting this for the sake of tangan gatal~
*kalau someone tersinggung bout this~sorry la~~

*and guess wad!!today im going back to hostel and my assignment haven even touch~yeahh~~
*burning mid night oil tonight~
*chow~~~mau go day dream and mandi jor~
*aileng~

my precious November 8, 2008

today~my precious keni kena kepit gate electric
*my little keni was outside that time and i called her to come in since outside dangerous mah
*den the gate masih bukak besar besar lagi~
*she dunwan to come in~
*when the gate close almost finish she suddenly masuk~
*her neck was terkepit!
*i was screaming and my aunty try to open the door as i try to pull the door away~
*i almost cry that time~i was soo scare that keni could die
*i cant see her move and straggling~
*my aunt was pressing the remove and she say cant work~
*she when in and press other remote and the gate open
*keni was having spasm and lying down there~
*my tears was going to flow out any moment that time and i hugged her in the house
*i was trying to relax her by giving massage and she manage to calm down~
*my dad was checking on her and asked me to take a piece of meat from the dinner table and let her makan
*she wont eat~i was accompany her till she oi oi and i went up stairs
*she went to backyard and lying down in a dark corner and i carried her back to the front~
*i was soo scare that i hug her and she din move~
*she din drink and water nor eat and my dad say she was still shock bout that incident
*my dad ask me to calm down and see wad is her condition nex morning!
*i was checking on her every hours and ensure she’s is ok~
*from that time onwards i noe keni was precious to me and i cant afford to let her die~
*i was planning to take her to vet nex day  if she still having the same condition~
*keni pls be safe~or else i will cry like hell~
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serve with a so call “SMILE” November 8, 2008

*sem 2 started weeks ago and some of my precious classmate already changed to a hardworking ppl..
*and the one who din change was only me..WONG AI LENG!!yes yes aku x tukar..masih tidur dalam class dan buat kerja rumah pada saat saat terakhir..
*imagine la..im the one who tidur in 1st day of class dan aku bangun lewat untuk class…
*and yet aku belum insaf~wuakakaka

 

*ok today punya topic adalah..serve with a “RUDE” smile ~ yeahh daaa..
*today after my taekwondo class at kajang utama i went to metro with aida since im free later in the evening..
*so since i hav no money with me back then so we just try on the baju and snap pict la,,,wuuaakkaak
*aida always wanted to wear shorts and dresses just that her parent not allow her to wear, and her freaking classmate oso..berfikiran kuno betul..wear baby t,itu panggil x malu ke??
*yes yes!! she kena tegur by her FRENs but not her PARENT for wearing the shirt she brought together with her frens~(her gang la)
*so wad we did was, we choose some of the ” lala ” baju for her to try on and she snap pict..i just get to try 1 baju and it cost rm 139.90!!dunno la..i din snap with her..my tugas was only pick which baju that is “smart” to her and let her try!
*so everything wemt smoothly until we reaches second floor~when aida was trying some other baju and busy snapping pict in the fitting room,i was lottering around and try to find my new year clothes since i hav no time to go during dec~so i belek belek tengok seluar lor..den i LIPAT balik and put it at the shaft~(im a good girl mah)
*the that lady(sales) come and say with quite a rude tone”di sana ada display..boleh tak pergi tengok display” and i saw her throwing tamper to the baju..she relipat that baju with MUKA masam~walau eh..
*im not costumer meh…treat me like this..i turn around and found she smiling with other older costumer ( look like parent type wan)..swt!!!
*nvm lor..i tahan only lor..guess she having her PMS(premenstrual syndrom) gua~wuakakka*evil..
*i went to check on aida see whether she finish snaping pict of herself in different style and she say the skirt was too loose and i help her to find a smaller size wan lor(fren mah)
*so i went  out and look at the display~sorry lor..x de lor~so i directly when to the pile of baju beside the so call display part where normally ppl will take a look 1st and belek belek the baju wan…den i mai start looking for that skirt lor
*den one indian lady come ask wad can she help..i ask for a smaller size skirt and she start looking for me..
*while waiting, that so call serving with a “SMILE” obasan come to me and ask me this stupid and nonsense question~(*with rude rude tone)..”berapa baju tadi u ambik dalam?(its that her bussiness??i hav right to try on baju without telling anyone)den she ask..”boleh ambik keluar tak baju yang sudah try?”and she stares at me~
*laarrrr~~as if la i wanna curi her baju o wad!wan curi oso curi tempat yang high class sikit la~metro kajang x de apa apa nak curi!plus we got money to buy that~bukannyer x de duit~~
*she look lke suspecting me wanna curi their baju!!harlooooo…ask her open my wardrobe and simply take a baju o dress la..!!!(thinking of how to shove her mulut with 100 pieces of roti canai!!dunno y think of this..mayb is my evil essence coming out from my body~)wuakakakaa
* walau eh..her muka x leh belah!!she make those annoying and irritating face and i feel like punching right to her nose and break her nose and her eyes !!
*i go where she try to see wad im doing!!and i hate ppl following me when i go shopping~

*after trying all those baju and leave that particular place..we go ground floor to meet up with jie which suddenly call and to hav his “lunch” since he baru habis ujian..
*send aida home and met up with him at  the same old spot and went to old town for his lunch..i din get to makan anything nor drink anything cause my period pandai choosi masa and datang that time…my tummy cramp like gila siao~sakitttt!!~
*den after he finish gulping the wholehot bowl of curry mee into his tummy we head to the pet shop to look for fishes..(since we plan to buy some fish to put in the hostel so that wont look soo empty wor according to jo yee and  ya la~i oso feel empty~)jane wanna bring plants there..~~~feng shui kononnyer~~
*im looking for some fishes and that fish shop doesn’t hav the fish i wan and i proceed to look at those small small and cute cute hamster~
*soo cute wan lor i tell you~i buat muka kesian to jie hoping he can buy for me~ITS NOT WORKING!!!after he discover that this is my skill and i can do it anytime!!!so say the hamster stay with me sure die~he wan the hamster to live longer!!*argggg
*nvm nvm..since he told me that he will try to get a maltese for my birthday nex year..wuakakak…
*send him home and head home~
*due to my period pain~i x mandi and terus baring and tidur~wuakkaka

“high tech mamak stall”n “brilliant” physics class~ June 24, 2008

*woo..mamak stall now adays are sooo “high teach“
*they hav wifi~n YES..IM BLOGGING THIS AT THE MAMAK STALL~
*got wifi n they allowed us to use the plug~
*fuyohhh…
*1st im gonna complain my physics class!
*u noe why?? our actual physics lecturer (mr.moorthy)(<sumthing like this cause I DIN SEE HIM B4)
*he go resign 1 day before we hav our 1st physics class..
*hav been waiting for physics teacher for 3 weeks n yet stupid management din arrange any lecturer for us
*ok this is the 3rd week…n we’ve complain to the coordinator..
*n guess wad happen??
*HE DOESN’T KNOW THAT WE DUN HAV A PHYSICS LECTURER~
*nice rite??so he call the management n ask..
*yes yes yes..i noe is lame but too bad la..thats our management mah..cannot do anything~
*now we hav our lecturer(his name is..divarka..but we call him dibakar..BEI YAN SIEW) but but hor..he is a very very busy lecturer..
*so our time table hav been changed..physics class which is originally 10 am change to 8AM!!!
*means hav to wake up at 6 to prepare n an hour earlier waiting at the stupid bus stop~
*jus finish our 1st physics class just now n its sucks…!(yea yea i noe its a bad word~but i cant find any words to describe that)
*he is trying to do 3 week work in a day~~lucky not enuf time n we only goy 1 week to learn n study 3 weeks stuff cause he say wor wan gib exam (AT THE 1ST DAY OF HIS TEACHING)
*he came in 1st place he starts saying all the rules..all stupid rules u noe
*i entre the class muz knock n say EXCUSE ME SIR~~
*THAT IS ENTERING OUR OWN CLASS ROOM!!!
*n he set other rules..dunwan us to DISCUSS the question when he talking
*wads the point of studying wihtout discussing the problem with fellow classmate
*hav to understand properly only can belajar mah~
*thats nvm..we WHISPER to each other to ask each other question!!
*i asked him questionc ause i dun understand wad he talking infront so i put up my hand(very guai wan me) n ask him sum questions)…
*he say  WAIT.!!0.0!! he continue explaining to class..how can i understand the class when i already dun understand at the 1st place??
*den he ask back..wad u dun understand..
*i say i dun understand the whole thing..
*see see stupid ppl~should listen to my question..n he hav to explain again~
*n he never answer our qeustion correctly(not never la..majority he answer different thing)
i aks different thing he go answer different thing~~
*i wad like “huh???apa ni??
*im asking bout the graph gradient n he go answer delta~??
*den he explaining like all different from our form 5 book..macam terbalik wan
*he explain like hes reading from the slide~~
*super sleepy man~~
*i already got bad impression to this lecturer..
*masuk kelas sahaja set all the stupid rules n he tegur ppl who dun even noe wads his rule( cause sum senior turn up late)
*i was like..SWT SWT!!they dun even noe got rules..kena marah early early in the morning..
*kesiannnnnnnnnnn
*den got ppl absent..i noe they sick..ermm whole class noe they sick…
*he say wor..”if next class no lettr..THEY ARE NOT ALLOWED TO ENTER THE CLASS
*i was like..O.o…
*pokoknyer..I DUN LIKE HIM SO DO MY FRENS..
*my classmate complaining sleepy after he finish the class..
*aiyak complain other time..
*gotto rush assignment n i wanna complain bout my bro n stupid cousin who sploit my assignment!!
*(other time lor)
*shitty..i start complaining like shit~~im a complaining freak~~wuu yeahh
*PEACE!!!^^v..
*SNIFF SNIFF..

test test test….woo yeahh June 17, 2008

*hehehe hahaha hohoho
*half crazy n having test this week
*physiology
*anatomy
*healthcare
*N YET I HARDLY TOUCH ANYTHING!!woo yeahh
*for physiology..i entre the hall without any preparation~
*so good bye to my physiology..
*how can a person soo stupid …
*that that that that that that..
*she could spell wrong some important terms..
*wuakaka..yes yes yes..i spelled wrong the word..*EOSINOPHILL*..
*N yes yes yes..i sudah half crazy..wuakakaka…

*i spelled EOSOPHILL..mana pergi my *IN*??
*hmm i wonder…mayb i too hungry n sudah telan??
*i bang my head immedietly once i hand up my test paper~
*the lecture was like..*huh??wad is this girl doing??
*i smack my head too hard n i started to get abit of dizziness..
*i drove to college that day instead of taking the college’s bus
*cause im sending 25 BEHAVIOURAL SCIENCE book to all my fellow classmate
*since all of them busy moving to their new hostel~
*haha..everyone in my class are moving except ME~~

*hahaha…i moved during the 1st week..
*we request to change our hostel from CERIA HEIGHT!!to SRI BAYU..
*which is not”ceria”at all..n its not on top of any hill o bukit..
*its next to a SEPTIC TANK~
*can u imagine that everyday when u wakes up n u wanna “menyedup” fresh air n the air smells like shit *wuakakaka..so we moved to the hostel with 3rd year senior n our next door are lecturers..
*quite big n nice the new place where we are living now..but too bad theres no swimming pool n no tennis court and other facilities for exercise..T.T
*but the place was sooo cold~~
*i catch cold there n hav been sick for almost a week~
*SUPER SUPER SUPER cold~
*now we are cooking by ourselves n senior are graduating n will be moving out soon~
*that time ..we will be cleaning the whole kithen n whole apartment~

*opps..run out of topic~
*back to my driving to college case~
*i left my chocolate in the car for almost 1 day..
*the heat melts the chocolate like paste~
*it look like hot pack where women use it to relax their mestrual cramp~
*wuaakakaka….n the whole week..i’ve been calling everyone *EVIL*
*cause wan kacau dem~

*n in class …theres only 4 chinese including me~~
*n out of 50+ students hor…theres only one n only guy in my class
*so he jadi mangsa from lecture..he bcum class rep since his the one n only guy in my class
*wuakakaka…n 4 of us was like a “gang”
*n whole gang hate a girl in our class..we call her..”ta bian chong”
*means..the shit worm or worm shit??~
*i noe i noe we are evil but wuakakaka too bad la..WE HATE HER~~
*HATE HER LIKE DUNNO HOW TO EXPLAIN~
*we’vw got our tag n my photo..*smack head*..look like a giraffe
*oh shit…better get back to my studies…tomorrow exam~~
*IM EVIL!!YET IM SUCH A GOOD GIRL~
*wooo yeahhhh!!

 

 

tagged~ April 17, 2008

tagged by jane~

5 things found in my bag.
*my taekwondo belt,my wallet,my comb,used old tissue(haha),bunny plaster(^^)V

5 things found in my wallet.
*money$$,IC,my driving license,my school’s name tag,love folded rm 10~

5 favourite things in my room.
* pillow,oink oink,blanket,teddy,big big sea shell cushion

List out the top 5 presents you wish for
*anything my fren buy~

1. What colour pants are you wearing now ?
*grey

2. Do you prefer light or dark haired girls ?
*dark

3. Are you currently frustrated with a boy?
*erm… now?? no gua 

4. Do you have a best friend ?
*stupid question~ofcourse i hav..

5. Who was the last person you hugged ?
*denise..months ago~

6. Have you ever had your heart broken ?
erm..YES

7. Have you ever thought of having plastic surgery ?
*NO~only silly ppl whose brain sudah hilang cacat in nowhere in rubbish bin..

8. Do you like your life ?
*YES..!!yea~~

9. Do you shop at Hollister ?
*apa tu??

10. Has one of your friends ever stolen a girlfriend from you ?
*erm erm..no i guess

11. Have you ever jumped in the pool with your clothes on ?
*YESHHHHHHHHHHHHHH~~taekwondo camp~

12. Do you have more friends that are girls or boys ?-
*i more guy frens now compare to girls~(juz abit lebih from girls)

13. How long have you had MySpace ?
*NO

14. Have you ever slapped a girl in the face ?
*yes~~i slapped camilla’s face ACCIDENTLY~~

15.What are your biggest fears ?
*lipas~!!dark~~

16. Has anyone close to you ever passed away ?
*both of my grandpa?~~

17. Have you ever cried yourself to sleep ?
*yes~~

18. have you ever not been able to get someone off of your mind ?
*yess..secret~

19. Do you believe in the saying, “Once a cheater, always a cheater” ?
*nope~

20. Have you ever had a good feeling about something ?
*yes

21. Do you ever wish you were famous ?
*childhood dream~wuaakakaka..now?no~

22. Are you currently missing someone ?
*erm~yes

23. Please tag 5 people.
*i dunno who to tag~wuakaakaka..

 

17th march~~ March 22, 2008

*swt swt swt….
*i woke up at 8am n begin to look for my uniform~~kakak washed every of my uniform~~shity shit~~~where im going to find a pair of uniform n teach class..
*i immediately call denise n asked her whether she hav extra pair of uniform anot~n the answer is YESSSSSSS..im save ..for goddess sake!!im save~~..so i prepare my thing n i noticed~~MY BOTTLE WATER MISSING~~..no doubt~~my bro took it without my permission n used it..stupid~~he got his own water bottle n din take good care of it..now its missing n he juz took my bottle n chuck it aside after using it~
*nvm nvm i take other bottle n rush out since i already ajak denise makan breakfast~~
*we makan breakfast at mcd~~cool huh??i masih hutang denise rm 20 n jane rm8..who else i hutang??pls tell me o inform me pls~~im a blurperson mah~~
*din get to go midvalley since my mum made appointment for my masterskill college 3 sumthing~..since i cant go hang kai kai with dem ..i juz can teach class for morning ..haihz
~~i miss the chance to go out with jane n sam~haihz~~
*after class i fetch denise home n went home n “prepare” for my interview at master skill..i sat down n watch tv to cool down myself n i dun realise it already 4 pm~~my mum screaming downstairs..i changed n naik kereta~~
*reach masterskill n notice everyone of the student wore white uniform~~mean in future im going to wear that too~~the college is quite nice n big too~~except its orange in colour
*pn. advise me to take pharmacy o physiotherapy..cause nursing at there is not that pro~~so i decided to take up physio since i x minat  phar..my mum do all the talkings n i juz sit there doing ntg~~
*n im going to stay at hostel since i borrow PTPTN loan~haha~~n the hostel at mahkota cheras which is much more jauh compare to my house..erm erm like this la~from my house to college is bout 15 minutes…den from hostel to college 30 minutes~swt~~!
*after all the talkings..i brought the form which cost rm 5..n head home.on the way home i keep mumbling alone cause im not use to stay outside n now i hav to stay at hostel~i was like mummy this mummy that~~
*my mum oso pening ady~i keep mumbling alone from the moment i step out the college n still mumbling when i reach home..mumbling alone while tgh mandi~~n start discussing with my dad n sis..n all agree i choose that course n all asking whether im gonna biasa anot if i stay at hostel~swt~~nvm nvm there got swimming pool~~woaahh yeahhh~~!
*i isi form salah n i going to buy again next time~~my rm 5 gone~

malaysia closed~13th march~ March 17, 2008

on the 13th of march… TYC ACADEMIC sent a team of 5 fighters to the Malaysia Closed tournament at the WISMA OCM KUALA LUMPUR…very near to the PETALING STREETS…

the players are..
*goh des soh…kena 5 bouts but 1st round kena knocked out~~our only hope~~(for that day gone~)
*tum choo yoong..kena 4 bouts but lost in the round beforre semis…so x dapat medals but habukss..but at least he wont a round~
*lee meng kitt..kena 4 bouts oso..1st round knocked out too..so get ntg~~but pening at head cause kena head~
*mohanarau…kena 4 bouts oso~~but brings us proud..he won a bronze medal~geng leh~~ during the round for finals..his leg injured n doesn’t wants to fight anymore..so he lost the game at semi finals~bravo mohaRANAU..(puposely spell wrong to irritate him)n his mandarin better den me 100 x
*Nur aidatul sofia...our hopes for ladies! n she makes us proud!..kena 4 bouts n she also won a bronze medal but she’s not puas with the fight cause she had injured b4 tht..so she end up crying there n cant walk back..at least she got one medal..~~

*emm emm emm em..denise n her bro came later arounf 2 sumthing n i reach there about 11am..~~stupid mohon go jalankan the upacara pemyerahan jawat team manager to me~~siao wan~~i juz sit there n read  sir’s papers n help dem on equipment when they going to fight …
*other then that~~~juz walk aimless around the dewan since i got the pass so i can go anywhere i wish~~haihz~~
*after that i went to gym but i din train cause i juz wanna take back my watch n purple bracelet which i left it there~
*but unfortunately sir din come n no keys to the  office~~so wad to do.. juz need to wait till sir came to the office~

spm result day~ March 12, 2008

*spm result sudah keluar~n my result bad like shit..erm erm..worst den shit..
*met alot of “old” frens there n most of them hav changed~into a LADY~but me??ntg seem to change
*after take the shit-ty result..i hav totally no mood to chat o do anything at that time..i juz chow home n before heads home…my dad bring me to see my new phone..which i hav to wait for about weeks o mayb months since its still quite expensive~
*due to my no mood-ish..i drove home in high speed~~on the slow lane~
*reach home totally no mood n makan a bit of rice since i really no appetite n no mood..
*after meal..i went upstairs n cried!!
*since i din sleep from yday night…..i cant sleep till 7am~so i slept after tired of crying~
*woke up n still depressing…wash my car..vacuum my car n wipe it dry~
*still dunhav appetite to makan…so mayb not taking dinner~
*n now im typing this…
*tonight might be disaster for me since my uncles n aunties wll juz keep asking n tada~~who get humiliated??ITS ME??so im preparing to stuck cottons in my ears..
*”y should i stuck cotton in my ears when i already get use to it??”my auntie even asked b4..”do i need to masuk mental hospital”cause i tgh bergaduh with my sis..everytime bergaduh…they seem to trust my sis n my bro more..since my gred is soo damn shit!!
*she doen’t know that the word she split out hurts me soo much~
*word such as:
=”i wonder that u are a part of the family anot?”
=”y u are soo different from others??”(since my gred since young is like shit~)
=”shall u just get in a mental hospital since u soo different from others?”
=”y ur result totally different from ur bro n sis??”(since their result is WAY better den mine..my sis score straight A’s IN HER SPM~n my family is super proud of her..even held a party n invites all the relative ..~~??)
=(during young time)”y dun u juz go help ppl to dump rubbish??”
*only my dad.mum.grandma.my dear grandpa..n one o two of my aunties n uncles(mixed from both family)supports me~~ *there much more they humiliates me..i juz dun keep it in my heart..i juz wanna forget it n get going in my life
*i din fight back or i dun shout back or mayb BITE back doesn’t mean im not hurt..im not in pain..o i dun feel anything~

*”HARLO..im a human with feelings too~~i hav feelings~~i know how to cry n i know how to feel the pain~~”*oh ya..this is the bright side of the humiliation..
 =”i hav no more hurt feelings when i know my frens talk bad about me..(from behind ofcourse..if i noe)
=”always can smile when kena humiliated n kena marah”(cause i dun hav much feeling more in my heart i guess)get used to it already~
=”can keep everything in heart without complaining to my family~”
=”can be alone sumtimes cause there really a peaceful in mind when ntg bothers u n no scolding or anything”(for sumtimes only..since im scared to be alone~im really scared to be alone..i dunwan to be alone~)
=”i can stand any humiliation n i silent myself” …mostly i din shout back(if it gets too serious i will most probably rebel back~)
*i gain much when im growing up..my aunties seem to notice it n discuss with my sis few years back~
*although i always look happy n smile..but sumtimes my heart really ache n pain~
*the outside n inside me is TOTALLY different~~mayb this is called 2 faced ppl..since im an aquarius n an aquarius is a double faced ppl~
*i always ask..”y my bro get wad he wants..ps2..super the new games..new pda phone..electronic dictionaries..new bag which cost alot~n everything that are every expensive??he juz need to manja n bribe me mum~”walao~being the youngest gets everything,,
*but im not that bad too..my dad sayang me more den anyone~he giv me wad i need without even i ask for it
*my mum conforting n cheerring me up by telling me her fren’s son’s reuslt worst den mine..but it doesn’t take any effects on me~
*i try not to stay at home tomolo after my class..im going to watch my team’s malaysia close tournament~im not entering since i lost my passion in competing~
*i juz wanna stay away from my home since i noe i will cry if i stay at home~
*hav no mood to continue to write~LASTLY…MENGKITT HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU~